(Buffy-)
Life's a Show and we all play our parts.
And when the music starts.
We open up our hearts.
Life's A song, you don't get to rehearse
And every single verse
Can make it that much worse..
But when you bow.
You Leave the Crowd.
So Give me Something to Sing About!
(Spike-)
Life's not a show.
Life isn't bliss,
Life is just THIS.
It's Living.
You have to go on Living.
(Lyrics from the Buffy Musical "Once More With Feeling" episode)
That is all.
XOXO
Cristina
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Did you Know?
That there is an estimated 4x the amount of suicides amongst Queer teens in society today?
That in the 1960's it was perfectly acceptable for a policeman to physically/verbally abuse/harass and arrest a gay man or transvestite?
That these acts of violence were committed on a shockingly aprooved of and regular basis?
That in 1969 a bar full of gay men and transvestites fought back against the oppressing and violent police forces who regularly terrorized them?
That though gay people want the equal civil right to marry one other, Queer Theorists consider same sex marriage an accepting of hetero-normative cultural practices?
That accepting/being part of norms in society is exactly what Queer people are trying not to do?
That this is what I learned tonight in a 3 hour lecture in English/Cultural Studies 3AA3?
That I just inadvertently educated you about Queer Theory?
That it is time for me to go to bed?
XOXO
Cristina
That in the 1960's it was perfectly acceptable for a policeman to physically/verbally abuse/harass and arrest a gay man or transvestite?
That these acts of violence were committed on a shockingly aprooved of and regular basis?
That in 1969 a bar full of gay men and transvestites fought back against the oppressing and violent police forces who regularly terrorized them?
That though gay people want the equal civil right to marry one other, Queer Theorists consider same sex marriage an accepting of hetero-normative cultural practices?
That accepting/being part of norms in society is exactly what Queer people are trying not to do?
That this is what I learned tonight in a 3 hour lecture in English/Cultural Studies 3AA3?
That I just inadvertently educated you about Queer Theory?
That it is time for me to go to bed?
XOXO
Cristina
Monday, September 27, 2010
When It Rains It Pours!!!
Why is that everything that could possibly go wrong in your life all happens in one week or on one single day?
Somebody call the Karma Police on this one! I did absolutely NOTHING to deserve this downpour of depression, conflict, sadness, confusion and pain i was bombarded with today.
I know I'm bellyaching, but today has been the most terrible day in the existence of days! OK Who's got the Gripe Water?
All day i've dealt with nothing but school issues, stupid scheduling conflicts and new tutorials to speak in without a fully functioning voice.
On top of that I've got assignments coming up and i need to do massive ammounts of reading the next 4 days or I will never get everything finished!
Running on 8 hours of sleep over 24 hours!! So Exhausted!
Then, to top it all off, the person you want out of your life ( who wants to remain in your life desperately) contacts you incessantly only to annoy you with their stupidity.
And Then! You find out that the person you DO want in your life (desperately) will be out of it very soon.
Ugh
The cherry on top is that I've still got a cough/sore throat and my stupid body decided to forcibly join a spinning/cycling class this week!
Stick a fork in me.....I'm Done!
CB
Somebody call the Karma Police on this one! I did absolutely NOTHING to deserve this downpour of depression, conflict, sadness, confusion and pain i was bombarded with today.
I know I'm bellyaching, but today has been the most terrible day in the existence of days! OK Who's got the Gripe Water?
All day i've dealt with nothing but school issues, stupid scheduling conflicts and new tutorials to speak in without a fully functioning voice.
On top of that I've got assignments coming up and i need to do massive ammounts of reading the next 4 days or I will never get everything finished!
Running on 8 hours of sleep over 24 hours!! So Exhausted!
Then, to top it all off, the person you want out of your life ( who wants to remain in your life desperately) contacts you incessantly only to annoy you with their stupidity.
And Then! You find out that the person you DO want in your life (desperately) will be out of it very soon.
Ugh
The cherry on top is that I've still got a cough/sore throat and my stupid body decided to forcibly join a spinning/cycling class this week!
Stick a fork in me.....I'm Done!
CB
"It's Not Over Until the Fat Lady Sings"
September 26th 2010 was the 100th anniversary of my church's existence! Wow!We had to sing a huge mass in church and there were some pretty high ranking church officials present.. we had two bishops! If you're catholic than this is a big deal okay!
Any who, my old people choir had been practicing for weeks to sing all the mass parts in Latin, and do some Greek parts as well, on top of the already lung challenging 2 and 3 part fancy songs in Italian that we would sing for the mass. Practices weren't entirely terrible but trust me, we were no where near ready and ne'er would be.
As they say, you can't teach an old dog new tricks...well you can't teach elderly "singers" old parts that to their memories and breathing capacities are like New songs or just as challenging as learning new songs.
Nonetheless my sisters and I barreled our way through each practice and ultimately we reached Today. September 26th 2010 when History for the Diocese of Hamilton was made at St. Anthony of Padua Parish. Bishops followed a fleet of robin hood hat men a.k.a (elderly) Alpini soldiers who were closely followed by the KofC (not to be confused with KFC or Colonel Sanders) who in full tux, cape, sword, gloves and feathered hat regalia then flanked the sides of the middle aisle awaiting the 15 priests and 2 bishops who walked between them heading towards the alter at the church front.
The assembly responded to the opening of the mass and then we were off! Our choir miraculously did not die or fade out or lose its tempo so completely that the thing turned into a hideous disaster (that we all secretly anticipated). Lo and behold ( though not professional in the least) we were able to sing every note from the highest of the high in the Latin Kyrie to the tempo confused Italian Gloria and beyond!
It was the proudest moment of my life -up to date.
We were even thanked by our pastor for doing such a wonderful job. Thank god half the assembly is old and hearing impaired and/or musically inexperienced because i am sure Simon from American Idol would have torn us apart.
My sisters and I saved the day, the organ music was beautiful and we were able to spread out among the different choir sections to carry the voices and somehow (with a little divine intervention I think) were able to complete our goal!
And all I have to show for it is an extremely sore throat and lack of voice...which will make for interesting tutorial discussions tomorrow... But it was well worth it!
-I think.
Next time you want to challenge yourself, try learning and singing the Soprano part of Enrico Perosi's "Messa Interna" or whatever it is called... Oh yeah! and Do it when you're sick!
XOXO
Cristina
Any who, my old people choir had been practicing for weeks to sing all the mass parts in Latin, and do some Greek parts as well, on top of the already lung challenging 2 and 3 part fancy songs in Italian that we would sing for the mass. Practices weren't entirely terrible but trust me, we were no where near ready and ne'er would be.
As they say, you can't teach an old dog new tricks...well you can't teach elderly "singers" old parts that to their memories and breathing capacities are like New songs or just as challenging as learning new songs.
Nonetheless my sisters and I barreled our way through each practice and ultimately we reached Today. September 26th 2010 when History for the Diocese of Hamilton was made at St. Anthony of Padua Parish. Bishops followed a fleet of robin hood hat men a.k.a (elderly) Alpini soldiers who were closely followed by the KofC (not to be confused with KFC or Colonel Sanders) who in full tux, cape, sword, gloves and feathered hat regalia then flanked the sides of the middle aisle awaiting the 15 priests and 2 bishops who walked between them heading towards the alter at the church front.
The assembly responded to the opening of the mass and then we were off! Our choir miraculously did not die or fade out or lose its tempo so completely that the thing turned into a hideous disaster (that we all secretly anticipated). Lo and behold ( though not professional in the least) we were able to sing every note from the highest of the high in the Latin Kyrie to the tempo confused Italian Gloria and beyond!
It was the proudest moment of my life -up to date.
We were even thanked by our pastor for doing such a wonderful job. Thank god half the assembly is old and hearing impaired and/or musically inexperienced because i am sure Simon from American Idol would have torn us apart.
My sisters and I saved the day, the organ music was beautiful and we were able to spread out among the different choir sections to carry the voices and somehow (with a little divine intervention I think) were able to complete our goal!
And all I have to show for it is an extremely sore throat and lack of voice...which will make for interesting tutorial discussions tomorrow... But it was well worth it!
-I think.
Next time you want to challenge yourself, try learning and singing the Soprano part of Enrico Perosi's "Messa Interna" or whatever it is called... Oh yeah! and Do it when you're sick!
XOXO
Cristina
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Vanity Insanity
I woke up this morning and when I looked in the mirror while brushing my teeth I couldn't look away! It was ridiculous honestly. I stood there gawking at myself, moving some pieces of hair that were "out of place" and turning my head from side to side to see myself from every angle. I couldn't help but think " oh my gosh, I am so pretty right now". And then I totally took pictures of myself with my cell phone camera. I was so excited that my hair was having a good day and my skin look immaculate.. then I spent fifteen minutes getting dressed to go out later in the day because I wanted to be a "knock-out" or at least modestly "cute". I was so happy.
After snapping the third picture of myself, the constantly analyzing mini cultural studies professor that resides in my head started thinking " wow, vain or what...lets see how many more self absorbed moments she spends taking pictures and staring at herself in her pjs?"
I spent another 10 minutes.
I am slightly ashamed.
But honestly this morning I felt so great because in my head and my vain slef obsessed opinion I looked phenomenal!!! I had Jonathan Coulton's song " I feel Fantastic" running through my head and I think I sang it to myself as I dressed...again staring at myself in the mirror an exceedingly long amount of time
Now, riddle me this...
Ever wake up, look in the mirror and think to yourself; "wow ..I'm so hideous! I look soooo bad right now!" and proceed to brush your teeth staring down at the sink and leave the bathroom without a second look into that "repulsive" image staring back at you? I totally went through this yesterday morning. I had had a terrible night and could barely stand the sight of myself, toothbrush in mouth scraggly hair and bags under my eyes that glasses just didn't hide. Ew. I hid from my bedroom mirror, covered as much skin as possible and put my hair up into an unflattering ponytail to go out.
Interesting how from one day to the next we can go from feeling excited and fantastic to feeling depressed and down trodden? And all because of our first impression of our own image.
Everyone has insecurities just as everyone has moments of certainty about themselves... Body image is a real issue in today's culture (as it has been forever) and it really doesn't help that the media is forcing extreme ideas and norms on everyone about what is deemed "beautiful" and what is "ugly" in society.
I think individually, waking up in the morning and thinking that either your looking great or looking terrible has to do with many factors which we can't really control such as how much sleep we got or how we slept, and in what positions and under what conditions (like hot, cold, humid, dry etc). People can remain in either the "pretty" or "unpretty" state of mind all day until something alters that such as clothing choices, people we see or meet, things we have to do etc. For example, knowing that I was going out in the evening yesterday I went from feeling "unpretty" to finding a few things to like about my image such as how my hair turned out after washing and how the weather was nice enough to be able to wear one of my favorite "feel good" shirts.
Ultimately, humanity is vain, even the most humble people don't like their hair one day or think a certain clothing item makes them look ________________(insert negative descriptive words here). But we have to remember that there is always something even a tiny bit beautiful in us every minute of every day ( yes even when we're watching in horror how the jeans of yester-year no longer zip up, or we've just expelled some kind of bodily fluid or noise or odor that is "unappealing" to us and others)... Beauty is in the eye of the beholder right? Attractiveness is only "skin deep", beauty is internal and causes external..works from the inside out and that is what makes us "beautiful people".
"You're so vain... you probably think this [post] is about you..don't you...don't you?"
That's my ramble for now... hope you think about when you wake up the morning after reading and your image self assessment comes back..
XOXO
Cristina
After snapping the third picture of myself, the constantly analyzing mini cultural studies professor that resides in my head started thinking " wow, vain or what...lets see how many more self absorbed moments she spends taking pictures and staring at herself in her pjs?"
I spent another 10 minutes.
I am slightly ashamed.
But honestly this morning I felt so great because in my head and my vain slef obsessed opinion I looked phenomenal!!! I had Jonathan Coulton's song " I feel Fantastic" running through my head and I think I sang it to myself as I dressed...again staring at myself in the mirror an exceedingly long amount of time
Now, riddle me this...
Ever wake up, look in the mirror and think to yourself; "wow ..I'm so hideous! I look soooo bad right now!" and proceed to brush your teeth staring down at the sink and leave the bathroom without a second look into that "repulsive" image staring back at you? I totally went through this yesterday morning. I had had a terrible night and could barely stand the sight of myself, toothbrush in mouth scraggly hair and bags under my eyes that glasses just didn't hide. Ew. I hid from my bedroom mirror, covered as much skin as possible and put my hair up into an unflattering ponytail to go out.
Interesting how from one day to the next we can go from feeling excited and fantastic to feeling depressed and down trodden? And all because of our first impression of our own image.
Everyone has insecurities just as everyone has moments of certainty about themselves... Body image is a real issue in today's culture (as it has been forever) and it really doesn't help that the media is forcing extreme ideas and norms on everyone about what is deemed "beautiful" and what is "ugly" in society.
I think individually, waking up in the morning and thinking that either your looking great or looking terrible has to do with many factors which we can't really control such as how much sleep we got or how we slept, and in what positions and under what conditions (like hot, cold, humid, dry etc). People can remain in either the "pretty" or "unpretty" state of mind all day until something alters that such as clothing choices, people we see or meet, things we have to do etc. For example, knowing that I was going out in the evening yesterday I went from feeling "unpretty" to finding a few things to like about my image such as how my hair turned out after washing and how the weather was nice enough to be able to wear one of my favorite "feel good" shirts.
Ultimately, humanity is vain, even the most humble people don't like their hair one day or think a certain clothing item makes them look ________________(insert negative descriptive words here). But we have to remember that there is always something even a tiny bit beautiful in us every minute of every day ( yes even when we're watching in horror how the jeans of yester-year no longer zip up, or we've just expelled some kind of bodily fluid or noise or odor that is "unappealing" to us and others)... Beauty is in the eye of the beholder right? Attractiveness is only "skin deep", beauty is internal and causes external..works from the inside out and that is what makes us "beautiful people".
"You're so vain... you probably think this [post] is about you..don't you...don't you?"
That's my ramble for now... hope you think about when you wake up the morning after reading and your image self assessment comes back..
XOXO
Cristina
Friday, September 24, 2010
A 7 Day Journey
Once there was a girl, who on the seventeenth day of September of the year two thousand and ten decided to send words out into the never-ending universe of the Internet . And thus a blog was born!
I hope this week has been as enjoyable for my readers as it was for me... I can't believe that these days have passed so quickly, and I know very soon I will be blogging about how much more time has come to pass, but for now I congratulate myself for this 7 day milestone.
Thanks to all my readers (you know who you are my faithful few) and to those of you who either posted a comment directly or e-mailed me commentary. Keep reading and keep the comments coming!
You never know what you are capable of, until you try to do something new. It is not in succeeding that we accomplish our goals, but in giving it our everything. That is achievement. To do and fail is better than not having done at all.
So thank you all for helping me accomplish my goal thus far. I set out to bring you the random and the everyday of my life as well as of the world/culture/society around me/us..and I intend to continue doing so until either my internet shuts down, blogspot disables or bans me or my life is no longer random and my everyday is of no consequence even to myself. As this is all more than likely not going to occur, you can all feel secure in knowing that there will be more blogs to come! and hopefully each one better than the next.
I apologize for the red on black and if that is fatiguing for people's eyes... I like it, i've gotten positive feedback equally to the negative and I don't think i'm going to change it yet. I hope that does not deter people from reading my blog but if it does, then it is your own losses. I also want to apologize if the length of my blog posts has caused boredom, fatigue, strain, annoyance or anger..i'm just trying to get my footing here, so bear with me. Plus, if those of you reading my blog know me for me irl (in real life hehe) than you all know by now how much of a rambler I am.
So cheers to my first week of blogging and a toast to the week(s) to come!
XOXO
Cristina
I hope this week has been as enjoyable for my readers as it was for me... I can't believe that these days have passed so quickly, and I know very soon I will be blogging about how much more time has come to pass, but for now I congratulate myself for this 7 day milestone.
Thanks to all my readers (you know who you are my faithful few) and to those of you who either posted a comment directly or e-mailed me commentary. Keep reading and keep the comments coming!
You never know what you are capable of, until you try to do something new. It is not in succeeding that we accomplish our goals, but in giving it our everything. That is achievement. To do and fail is better than not having done at all.
So thank you all for helping me accomplish my goal thus far. I set out to bring you the random and the everyday of my life as well as of the world/culture/society around me/us..and I intend to continue doing so until either my internet shuts down, blogspot disables or bans me or my life is no longer random and my everyday is of no consequence even to myself. As this is all more than likely not going to occur, you can all feel secure in knowing that there will be more blogs to come! and hopefully each one better than the next.
I apologize for the red on black and if that is fatiguing for people's eyes... I like it, i've gotten positive feedback equally to the negative and I don't think i'm going to change it yet. I hope that does not deter people from reading my blog but if it does, then it is your own losses. I also want to apologize if the length of my blog posts has caused boredom, fatigue, strain, annoyance or anger..i'm just trying to get my footing here, so bear with me. Plus, if those of you reading my blog know me for me irl (in real life hehe) than you all know by now how much of a rambler I am.
So cheers to my first week of blogging and a toast to the week(s) to come!
XOXO
Cristina
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Random Thoughts
If I could redo today, I would.
If I could redo everything from yesterday, I wouldn't.
If I was able to control everything tomorrow.. I'd leave it up to chance.
Life is short... sadly we only realize this on the day our age changes or when it's too late, or someone we know or ourselves are dying or have died. Maybe we ought to use the time we have before we start regretting.
Every day is a Blessing that should be taken in stride with high held heads, happy care-free hearts and a pinch of humour.
If you sleep the day away you've missed so much that you will never have again.
When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade.... or poor mans neo-citron.. or lemon meringue pie..m m m
Laugh as much as possible, Love as much as possible, Live as much as possible.
XOXO
C
If I could redo everything from yesterday, I wouldn't.
If I was able to control everything tomorrow.. I'd leave it up to chance.
Life is short... sadly we only realize this on the day our age changes or when it's too late, or someone we know or ourselves are dying or have died. Maybe we ought to use the time we have before we start regretting.
Every day is a Blessing that should be taken in stride with high held heads, happy care-free hearts and a pinch of humour.
If you sleep the day away you've missed so much that you will never have again.
When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade.... or poor mans neo-citron.. or lemon meringue pie..m m m
Laugh as much as possible, Love as much as possible, Live as much as possible.
XOXO
C
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